Yes, Virginia, There Is Life After Parkinson’s

Posted on December 7th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. No Comments

Dear Friends,

I just looked back on my last blog post; it was seven months ago. Since that time so much has transpired for all of us. Personally, I’ve been to the East Coast and Europe for Qigong/Parkinson’s presentations, celebrated another birthday, survived the US presidential elections debacle, and supported the Standing Rock protest against the Dakota Access Pipeline.

No, I didn’t physically attend at Standing Rock, but took part in many other activist deeds to support the water protectors. My continuing qigong practice has awakened me even further to the connectedness of all, and to my responsibility to my brothers and sisters and the planet. Also, teaching eighth-grade American History for many years had raised my consciousness to the plight of the Native American, ironically as curriculum mandates were squeezing out the the early history of our nation. That didn’t happen in my classroom. We began each academic year by reading “Ishi: The Last of the Yahi.” So Standing Rock has more than my interest and attention. It has my heart.

Just as I planned to begin writing this piece this afternoon, the news broke that the Army Corps of Engineers agreed that the proposed route for the pipeline, a.k.a. black snake, … Read More »

A Chi Travelogue: California, Santa Fe, New York City, Amsterdam, Dublin

Posted on May 5th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 1 Comment

“In order to understand the world, one has to turn away from it on occasion.” – Albert Camus

Prior to my diagnosis with Parkinson’s, I had never attended a retreat. I’d never even been to sleep away camp, and was a commuter in college because of family obligations. So deciding to attend my first Wisdom Healing Qigong retreat, in China of all places, was a bit of a stretch. The decision challenged my comfort zone, and inherent in that was renewed vitality. I didn’t shrink away from something I wanted to do because of some “intimidating” logistics. Keeping my eyes on “the ends” allowed me to navigate “the means” successfully.


Since that wonderful experience, where I met amazing, loving teachers like Teacher Ma and Teacher Zhou, I have attended and spoken at a number of retreats here in California as well as presenting at one in Hawaii. Now it is retreat time again. I will be attending, as well as working with a group of participants. From May 14-27 an intensive healing retreat is offered at Earthrise Center, nestled in the lovely Sonoma Hills. There will be a focus on Parkinson’s and other neurological conditions. However, the retreat is open to all. … Read More »

Parkinson’s Healing Non-Timeline

Posted on February 22nd, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. No Comments


This Tuesday, 2/23/16:
Edgar Cayce Center, 241 West 30th Street, #100,
(212) 691-7690
From 8-9 Eastern, Skype chat followed by Q & A. If you’re in the neighborhood, drop by.

Tuesday, 06/14/16:
Personal appearance at Manhattan Edgar Cayce Center, 7-9 Eastern, see above for location.

Sunday, 06/19/16:
Amsterdam – afternoon presentation, details to follow.


Parkinson’s Healing Non-Timeline

We are all Mad Hatters in this day and age. Overscheduled, overworked, overwrought, and under stress a good deal of the time. Add to this a diagnosis of Parkinson’s or some other degenerative condition, and an urgency sets in: a rush to beat the clock, to hurry up and heal before the further damage that is promised with the diagnosis takes its toll.

STOP RIGHT HERE. That mentality is generated by fear. Fear does not promote healing, but just the opposite. Yet one of the first things people want to know is “how long” it took me to heal. This is understandable; if the answer were thirty years, it might be discouraging.

What you need to know is that the answer is different for each individual, just as the condition presents itself differently in all of us. There is a letting go required. An understanding that you are entering new and uncharted territory, that … Read More »

Healing and Self Compassion: The Long and Bumpy Road

Posted on December 3rd, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 3 comments

Haola friends,

Healing requires transformation. This kind of transformation requires self-love. I knew this well enough to call my website Mettamorphix, the double “t” in metta referring to the loving kindness to self that is necessary. Yet self-love is a skill not easy to come by, especially if one has been chronically ill and annoyed at one’s own being for the situation. As with many lessons, there is a learning curve, and even after I recovered physically from Parkinson’s, I was still often very tough on myself. When doing qigong practice I wanted to look perfect. I pushed myself into physical positions that were not advisable for someone with my skeletal structure, and paid no attention to suggestions from others, as well as the painful messages issued by my own body. Self-compassion must be a daily practice, just like qigong or gratitude. I am now careful not to shift myself unnecessarily into overdrive, and unless there is dire emergency, overdrive is usually not mandated. Yet I understand the urgency felt by people who want to heal and feel the clock ticking. This is when one most needs to be mindful of the moment. To future trip about how fast or slow … Read More »

Post-Parkinson’s Self Diagnosis and Recovery

Posted on January 21st, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 4 comments

Hello Dear Friends,

I know it has been many moons since my last posting, and the one following this one could come next week, next spring, or next lifetime. Several years ago I attended a class in blogging and was told that to be successful (and what does that mean?) one needs to post at least once, and preferably twice weekly. I tried that for a short while. It was ok, except that I am now my own boss, and my boss was running me ragged: blogging, coaching, consulting, substitute teaching, working on a book, volunteering, not to mention at all my personal life, and the attention I love to invest there, and of course, my daily beloved qigong practice. That Parkinson’s drive was still running very strongly in me. It was as though PD itself was not enough of a lesson to slow me down. My stubborn sense of self was still very much in the doing mode, instead of just being. It wasn’t exactly a conscious decision to return to “overdrive.” I was swept by the passion that accompanied my recovery, and the desire to get the word out to others and to respond to the steady stream of … Read More »

Juneteenth, Parkinson’s and Qigong

Posted on June 22nd, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 12 comments

Five years ago at this moment, I was a woman with a disease believed to be incurable, irreversible, and progressive. Parkinson’s Disease didn’t so much define me as confine me. Fatigue, stiffness and chronic pain, as well as effects of prescribed medications, were narrowing my world, just as the prognosis of Western had promised. So I trudged through a slow but steady descent into worsening symptoms, and along with that, fear.

Fear didn’t paralyze me, however. Recently retired, I now had time for research, and I did a bunch. It was that research plus the encouragement of a friend that brought me to medical qigong, through which I gradually regained the physical/mental/spiritual connection necessary for me to operate a free-moving body.

So I arrived at qigong, and the start of my own liberation, on the same day that slaves in Texas finally were made aware of their own freedom, granted by The Emancipation Proclamation over two years earlier. I am honored to share this historic date, June 19th, with the liberated slaves of 1865.

On June 19, 2009, I arrived at the Marin JCC with my friend, Jean, for a two-day workshop to “Awaken the Healer Within” by learning practices of Zhineng, also … Read More »

Alo Ha-Ha

Posted on March 6th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 2 comments

Dear Friends,

Why the “ha-ha” in the title? Because when I think of my recent time in Hawaii, I must chuckle as I am reminded that “Life is what happens as we are making other plans.” The narrative below will explain. As does the photo above, taken the afternoon prior to our morning seafaring excursion.

I have heard from a number of you about my blogging silence, and there were some
requests to share a bit about the Hawaii retreat. First, I’d like to repeat
something I noted a while back. I learned in a class for reluctant writers that
in order to blog successfully, become established, become a “name” – one should
blog a minimum of once a week, preferably twice. Now I’d like to share something
I learned from my own healing: disregard the “shoulds” – live in the moment.
Lately many of my moments have been involved with writing, but writing client
reports and summaries. So my passion for the written word is being satisfied,
although a good deal of my readers seem to want a bit more. So please bear with
me as I problem-solve the matter.

Meanwhile, let’s talk “aloha.” And I do mean aloha. The deeper connotations of
this term are about living in harmony and … Read More »


Posted on December 31st, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 2 comments

Dear Friends,

Instead of making a specific resolution, I will file away this short clip and re-view it as often as necessary. Thought you might enjoy it, too.

Would also like to invite you to join myself and Judith in Hawaii from 1/19-1/26. A happy, healthy way to usher in 2014.

Chi Blessings,

Be Happy (link to YouTube)

Ha Ha Healthy

Posted on December 13th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 1 Comment

Dear Friends,

“The most radical act anyone can commit is to be happy.” -Patch Adams.  This implies happiness can be a conscious decision.  Why would we want to go here? Besides the obvious reason that joy is in itself a destination,  let’s take a look inside the laughter and see what’s happening inside the body when we laugh:

– oxygen and circulation flow increase

– blood pressure lowers

– muscles are activated

-stress is diminished

-physical tension is eased

– pain tolerance is improved

– immune system is boosted

– the organs vibrate

– hypothalamus, pituitary and adrenal glands are activated

-endorphins are excreted

Sounds good, doesn’t it?  And as I look to play Devil’s Advocate, the only downside I can see to convulsive guffaws is possibly some minor incontinence, a price many would be willing to pay for a good laugh.  I’m in – let the drops fall where they may!! While I’m navigating the yellow river, let me take it one step further by sharing a vignette from the life of Norman Cousins, king of healing laughter. He checked himself out of the glum grey hospital and into a hotel room where he hired a private nurse. One day she commented that his urine sample seemed a bit cloudy. He … Read More »

Rx for Stress

Posted on November 14th, by Bianca in Uncategorized. 4 comments

Dear Friends,

For many years I denied the existence of stress in my life. Now I look back and ask myself why I did this. The fact of the matter is I didn’t know any better. I didn’t have the tools or resources necessary to reduce stress, so addressing it would have been one more item on my exponentially growing and anxiety-producing to-do list. Back then, when complemented on my radiant skin, and asked what I “used” to get that glow, my wise-guy response was always: “Stress.” At that time in my personal evolution I was still going with the party line: If you can’t see it, it doesn’t exist. Another part of that old belief system was that one could only rest or take a break when everything on the to-do list was completed. Since these lists always flirted with infinity, the odds of earning any respite were negligible.

I now view said to-do list as non-linear; one day flows to the next; I take breaks when I feel the need, and seem to be increasingly productive. I am also beginning to learn to ask for help once in a while. Fierce independence, when coupled with perfectionism, is not the most … Read More »

Live Link for Today’s Broadcast-most recent and final update :)

Posted on September 29th, by Bianca in Uncategorized. 4 comments

Dear Friends,

Yesterday the broadcast link I sent was erroneous. Here is the correct one for today’s broadcast:

EVENT: Sunday Connections with Bianca Molle
DATE & TIME: Sunday, September 29th at 2:00pm Pacific

FORMAT: Simulcast! (Attend via Phone or Webcast — it’s your choice)

DIAL IN: 206-402-0100, Guest Code: 200414#

passcode: bianca2012

I apologize for yesterday’s link error and for the fact that this does not appear to be coming up as a live link, which means you’ll have to type it all in. If I can remedy the situation, I will send out a live link prior to the today’s broadcast at 2. Hope to visit with you then. Feel free to phone in at the number given above.


Catching Up

Posted on September 28th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. No Comments

Dear Friends,

My recovery from Parkinson’s has brought about a re-introduction to my authentic
self, and an abundance of opportunities to express that self, especially in the
last year. I have been writing (Reboot and Rejoice), public speaking,
consulting, coaching, blogging, teaching in the public schools, volunteering
(qigong for special ed.) practicing qigong daily, working out at the gym, and
sometimes managing time to enjoy family and friends. This is not a “brag list.”
I remember years ago listening to the wonderful pop psychologist, Dr. Leo
Buscaglia, as he discussed “human doings,” a term applied when we do not allow
ourselves to enjoy simply “being.” I love all the choices my recovery has
brought me, and currently feel like a kid in a candy shop, a good kid, but
perhaps a bit greedy. I never expected my life to take this surprising and
wonderful turn, but it did, and here I am.

There are new challenges brought about by renewed health. It is exciting to feel
the return of high energy, mental clarity, and creativity. And I want so much to
share my message so that others may join me in the experience. Thanks to
Lilou Mace of Juicy Living Tours, Dr. Robert Rodgers,
and Master Mingtong Gu,, many have. Now my challenge is to
practice … Read More »

Blackie’s Pasture: Some, or Nothing At All

Posted on August 7th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 9 comments

Dear Friends,

I begin this posting reclining on a bench at Blackie’s Pasture, overlooking the tranquil Richardson Bay in Tiburon, California.  It has taken me about four years of fitful starts and stops to arrive here.

Prior to my healing, even as a person with Parkinson’s,  I was able to walk level paths like this one.  Then, as the healing progressed,  so did the leg and foot pain and swelling.  Both the summer of 2011 and 2012 were spent in an orthopedic boot.  Each time I was released from the boot I attempted to resume walking exercises much too quickly, thus creating setbacks.

That wonderful chi wisdom is finally penetrating to the level at which I live my daily life, and I am having all kinds of realizations, most of which demand I lower the standards of near perfection I set for myself for most of my life. Which is why it is ok for me to interrupt today’s walk with some resting and foot elevation.  I selected this trail for both its beauty and its offering of friendly benches, scattered strategically along the way.  Today I celebrate that I am able to walk a short distance in each direction, with a brief … Read More »

GREAT NEWS about PD, Meds, and Energetic Healing!!!!

Posted on May 20th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. No Comments

Dear Friends,

I am pleased to inform you of my conversation with Dr.Julie Griffith, MD, MS, CMT of San Rafael, California. Dr. Griffith is a neurologist and is willing to work with with PWP’s who are healing energetically and need assistance with gradually reducing meds. Besides her other credentials, Dr. Griffith graduates from The Academy of Intuition Medicine in July and is working on a PhD in Energy Medicine from Energy Medicine University. I have advised her that the interest is both national and international, and she is fine wit that. Dr. Griffith also assists with nutrition, toxins, and infections. She has not worked with Parkinson’s meds herself, but is confident about assembling a team including other neurologists and related professionals. Working with Lyme Disease is one of Dr. Griffith’s specialties, good news for those with dual diagnosis. I will keep you posted on developments as they happen.

I am excited to be located at the center of such an auspicious chi field. Novato, my hometown, is just north of San Rafael, Dr. Griffith’s location, and just south of Petaluma, where The Chi Center is located. I must admit I am heaving a giant sigh of relief, as now I … Read More »

Back from Beyond: Anita Tells All

Posted on May 19th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 2 comments

Dear Friends,

Since my recovery experience I have been attracted to the healing stories of others. In several cases I have found the recounting of NDE’s (Near Death Experiences) to have much in common with the lessons I have learned from my relationship to Parkinson’s Disease (as well as from other life challenges). The annex at the end of my book, “Reboot and Rejoice”, includes one such title and author: “Proof of Heaven” by Eben Alexander 111, MD. Just recently I found another such work, “Dying To Be Me: My Journey From Cancer to Near Death to True Healing” by Anita Moorjani.

Something I share with this author is a sense of purpose to bring a message of hope, happiness, and healing. The charge here is to to do this in an all-inclusive, non-dogmatic way- a charge made difficult from the simple limitations of language. By selecting certain words or examples, am I not excluding others? So I do the best I can with my linguistic toolbox, hoping the sentiments will resonate, and perhaps refresh some perspectives, and bring some further along on their healing path.

In Chapter 15 of her book, Moorjani addresses a question she often asked: Why do you think … Read More »

Food for Thought

Posted on May 12th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 2 comments

Dear Friends,

Recently many incoming questions and consultations have included interest in diet. A few weeks ago I wrote about abstaining from grains, which probably generated the trend. Now I feel I should give some background and share my opinions.

First and foremost, my emphasis is always on qigong and working with the body/mind connection. The Paleo diet I am currently following and finding helpful was not something I used when I healed from Parkinson’s. I healed anyway. The diet I was following at the time, and had been following for years, with various degrees of intensity, is the candida diet. Here’s why. In the mid 1990’s, almost overnight, I went from having a fit, attractive body to a weight gain of over 100 pounds. I had aches, pains, fatigue ad infinitum, along with a nausea/hunger sensation, like having a chronic nasty case of flu. All the doctor could find was elevated liver enzymes, which, after testing, did not appear to be hepatitis. I was finally referred to a hepatologist who ordered a liver biopsy which was sent to the Mayo Clinic in the hopes that a diagnosis would be found through their matching data bank. No such event occurred. At … Read More »

Can You Afford to Heal?

Posted on May 4th, by Bianca in Uncategorized. 1 Comment

Hi Friends,

First of all, I’d like to thank those of you who wrote in to wish me a fun weekend with my sons last week.  We had a great time being together, so much so that we will be road-tripping again, soon.  I understand that this time, my grandson, Alex, (almost 5) would like to join us.  My cup runneth over.

Now, about the magic #3.  I am often asked if I really practiced three or more hours a day for two years.  Yes, I did.  And I didn’t mind one bit.  I enjoyed it.  There was nothing more important to me than working on restoring my health.  Each time I practiced I could sense the qigong working, and along with that, increased calm.  On Tuesdays, when  Mingtong was holding group practice at Spirit Rock, I made myself unavailable to sub for the day, so that I could devote my time to WHQ. Yes, that meant turning down jobs and “losing” money.  Abundance comes in many forms, and the way I see it, health and energy trump money, because if you have the two former, the latter has potential to develop.  Also, as I proceed with this enlightening practice, it has … Read More »

April Is the ________ Month.

Posted on April 26th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 2 comments

Dear Friends,

This is both Autism Awareness Month and Parkinson’s Awareness month, a double-header in this family. To quote the poet TS Eliot: “April is the cruelest month.”  These words came to mind that day in April when I received my PD diagnosis.  I was about to retire from teaching in June, a departure brought about a bit early due to the pain and fatigue of what I had just discovered on that April 29th was Parkinson’s.  Not the retirement gift I had planned for myself.  My vision of life after teaching had included time with family, especially grandkids, volunteering, hiking, and travel.  I had purchased a truck a few years earlier, with the idea of hauling my bike to country backroads for little adventures. Then I began taking spills on the bike due to compromised balance.  Today, a number of years and thousands of hours of mindful qigong practice later, I still have the truck, but not the Parkinson’s.  I am eternally grateful for this development. I am also grateful for a number of lessons that presented themselves and that continue to appear as a result of this experience.

When I discovered qigong and became immediately aware that it was helping … Read More »

Bye Bye Bread!

Posted on April 22nd, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 4 comments

Dear Friends,

I am often asked about any special diet I followed for recovery from Parkinson’s. In general, I have been loosely and intermittently following the candida diet, a plan I followed rigidly for over a decade due to digestive issues which appeared long prior to the PD diagnosis. Many of you know the drill: no yeast, sugar, gluten, caffeine, alcohol, carbonation, fermentation, and limited dairy. Some grains and gluten-free baked goods are permitted. I re-introduced coffee, as it is now sometimes suggested as helpful for PD. I also lightened up on other aspects of the candida diet, having followed it for many years. It was a comfort to be able to find so many gluten-free available baked goods recently . Then I noticed that many of these products contain tapioca and other ingredients for which the verdict is not yet determined. My recent difficulties with my left ankle and foot (swelling and pain from scar tissue from an old and unremembered injury) motivated me to research diets that would reduce swelling and inflammation. The Paleo Diet appeared often enough for me to decide to give it a try.

So for the last week or so I have been following a … Read More »

Uncovering Recovery

Posted on April 6th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 3 comments

Dear Friends,

First I would like to thank those of you who have read my book and sent in feedback.  I appreciate your taking the time to write.  It  helps to know that “Reboot and Rejoice” is performing as it was intended. That keeps me inspired and motivated. At the end of this post there will be a special book offer for blog subscribers.

Now, about today’s topic:  Uncovering Recovery.  What does it mean?  It means to me that healing is indeed a mysterious journey with many layers.  It means that as pleased and thankful as I am to be free of Parkinson’s Disease, my job isn’t yet done, and I doubt it will ever be.  As you have heard before, I continue to work with leg and foot issues.  Parkinson’s affects the gait, and one must re-train in walking, which can be tricky when a lifetime of accumulated injuries and issues, previously silent, are now all screaming for attention.  Had I known then what I know now, I would have purchased and worn those orthotics when they were suggested many decades ago.  Also, while continuing with my qigong regimen, I would have added regular sessions on the Pilates Reformer.  Beyond that, … Read More »

Being, not Doing…Ahhh….

Posted on March 29th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 7 comments

Dear Friends,

This is my first posting in about a month- a far cry from the weekly schedule considered imperative by those “in the know” of blogging. As a matter of fact, many experts suggest a minimum of twice a week. However, something I often blog about is how being outside the box is a necessary factor in recovery from chronic illness, so what kind of example would I be if I didn’t, on occasion, thumb my nose at expectations, especially those I find occasionally oppressive? I am gradually winnowing “shoulda’, coulda’, woulda’, hafta’ ” from my mental lexicon.

I will explain what I have been attempting to do in the last month, since my return from presenting a workshop at the Parkinson’s Summit in Santa Fe. I have been busy doing MOSTLY NOTHING!! That’s right, you heard it: NADA. ZILCH. BUPKIS. ZERO. Why?

In the weeks prior to the Parkinson’s Summit in Santa Fe I decided to produce a “little book to accompany the workshop.” Writing a book had been a ship that I thought had sailed past my reach many years ago, something perhaps for a more vigorous lifetime. But I had also thought I was done with all writing … Read More »

A New Arrival

Posted on February 21st, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 3 comments

Dear Friends,

It is with great pleasure that I announce the arrival of my book, “Reboot and Rejoice: How I healed from Parkinson’s Disease using the body/mind practice of qigong: regimen, background and personal reflections.” It includes selected, revised, and updated formerly posted blogs,as well as new material. Each chapter leads with a quote, which summarizes the energy of the piece. At the end of each chapter is an “Afterthoughts” section which includes new information and resources and/or further reflections and latest insights. Of course, my healing “recipe”, now termed “regimen” is included, as well as the qigong materials used in the process. There is also a bit of biography, from the point of view of possible early experiences and conditions that I believe may have contributed to the onset of Parkinson’s.

Paperback copies of “Reboot and Rejoice” may be ordered via this website, under the “Shopping” tab. Ebooks are available via the Amazon Kindle Store. There will soon be a link for ordering ebooks on my website as well. It is my hope that this will be a guide for many who are interested in working on healing themselves and would like someone to walk the path beside them. To quote … Read More »

Connecting with Master Mingtong Gu

Posted on January 11th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 2 comments

Dear Friends,

This Sunday, January 13th, at 2 pm Pacific Time, I will be interviewing Master Mingtong Gu for you on the Sunday Connections broadcast, and here’s how you can join us: Password:bianca2012. Format: Simulcast (Attend via phone or webcast, you choose.) DIAL IN:206-402-0100. Guest Code:200414#.

Mingtong acquainted me with the world of qigong, energetic healing, my own recovery from Parkinson’s Disease, and the expanded life that follows. Less than four years ago my body was contracted with pain, tremor, stiffness, and fatigue, and my world was shrinking accordingly. Fortunately, via Mingtong and Wisdom Healing (Zhineng) Qigong, there was a reversal of health and well-being. Today’s blog will introduce you to the man who introduced me to my “miraculous” recovery.

Mingtong, like myself, discovered profound healing through Zhineng Qigong. As a child in China, his early years presented the challenge of poverty, hunger, and disease. His mother performed a most loving act: permitting him to be adopted by a family who could present him with a life of more opportunity. She wanted an education for her son, and Mingtong became the first from his village to attend college. He was graduated from Hangzhou University with a degree in Mathematics. Then, in … Read More »

Randy Eady: Head Over Heels About Healing

Posted on October 19th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 2 comments

Dear Friends,

This appears to be a most eventful time for many of us, including Randy Eady, aka “The Foot Whisperer.”  Since Randy is holding a Moving Event this weekend in Boca Raton, Florida, it seems a good time to share some of his wonderful work with you.  And you don’t need to go to Florida to ” get your feet wet  ” – Randy will be at the Summit in Santa Fe this coming February.

I became acquainted with The Foot Whisperer in June, when I made my first workshop presentation at The Parkinson’s  Summit in Cincinnati. My own preparation for this event kept me too busy to research much about my co-presenters. So at the summit I became intrigued by this fellow who offered  Chifeet mats,  foot soakings, specialized foot gear, worked with foot acupressure points, and  demonstrated taichi and other body/mind methods, including yoga and qigong. In social conversation one evening, I also learned that Randy does work with the Department of Defense, bringing hope and healing to many returning wounded vets.  So for those skeptics who view non-traditional healing techniques  as woo-woo or soft science, even Uncle Sam has endorsed Randy!

It is challenging to fully showcase Randy and … Read More »

Sweet Surrender: The Accidental Buddhist

Posted on September 29th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 4 comments

Dear Friends,

Forgive me if themes sometimes seem redundant. Repetition is often necessary until an “aha” occurs. So here I go again, and again, and again. Rinse, lather, repeat. In preparing for this week, I was working on two distinct topics, relationships and uncertainty, simultaneously. Then I happened upon a book by Pema Chodron: “108 Teachings on Cultivating Fearlessness and Compassion.” So I chose to go with the “uncertainty” theme and began reading the book as I continued writing. I noted how my own healing process reflected so much of her spiritual guidance. Hence, the conclusion that I must have been an “accidental Buddhist.”

I have mentioned in an earlier post that as I began working on healing from Parkinson’s with qigong, I learned of only one person who had partial success, a woman in China mentioned in Luke Chan’s “101 Miracles of Natural Healing.” Because my goal was complete recovery, I was not at all attached to the few details of her story available. I didn’t try to compare or mirror her results.

I treated Parkinson’s as a visiting professor, and was open to whatever the lesson. I surrendered to the uncertainty of outcome. In so doing I probably spared myself much … Read More »

Words to Live By

Posted on August 29th, by Mettamorphix in Uncategorized. 2 comments

Dear Friends,

Thank you for your responses about future talking points. I am currently organizing information and will be addressing your topics in the near future. Please feel free to continue sending in your requests.  One of my Facebook friends shared these words of Mother Theresa yesterday, and it overrode any messages I had planned for the week. Her advice is simple but powerful, and applicable to all.  Happy Healing.


From Mother Theresa…


“People are  often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered:  Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives:  Be kind anyway.

If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies:  Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank people will try to cheat you:  Be honest anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight:  Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous of you:  Be happy anyway.

The good you do today will often be forgotten by tomorrow:  Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough:  Give your best anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God.

It was never between you and them anyway.”


…with great thanks to Mother Theresa, truly a … Read More »

Pain and Parkinson’s Disease

Posted on July 30th, by Bianca in Uncategorized. 5 comments

Hello Friends,

One of the daily miracles I celebrate  since healing from Parkinson’s Disease is waking up pain-free every day. Haola! Not only that, but in the evening I can sleep on my side again, either side- I am no longer paralyzed by painfully stiff shoulder blades. This morning I remembered another cause for gratitude- doing fine motor work without stiffness, clumsiness, or pain. Today is my grandson, Alex’s, fourth birthday.  I was able to wrap his presents neatly and precisely, using tape and wrapping paper. For many years, long prior to my diagnosis, I had switched over to using gift bags- the only way any gift from me could appear presentable-just ask my friends. My godchild’s mom used to secretly re-wrap my gifts before giving them to her daughter!

The reason the topic of pain comes up is that last week I was reminded of what it feels like to be told there is no pain with Parkinson’s Disease. Tuesday was my first neurology visit in two years. The last time I had been seen and declared “symptom free” I was told to return in one year if there were issues, or in two years if I remained symptom-free. So I … Read More »

Permission to Heal from Parkinson’s

Posted on July 23rd, by Bianca in Uncategorized. 2 comments

Dear Reader,

I am contacted daily by a number of people with Parkinson’s and some of them perplex me.  They want to know if I really practiced for several hours a day because they don’t have the time for that.  It seems to me that all serious chronic conditions are screaming at us to pay attention and to devote positive time and energy to making ourselves well NOW before any further deterioration occurs.  The “pay now or pay later”  adage applies so well here.  That job that seems so important can and will be done by someone else at some point down the road anyway.  I know, having been forced by Parkinson’s to retire from teaching. The good news was, within a year of retirement I had found qigong and begun recovery.

I think the ” no time” issue may be covering up something bigger- the question:  “Do I deserve to take the time to work on healing myself? What about my family, friends, co-workers, obligations, finances?”  What about them if the Parkinson’s continues to progress?  Why not try a time-out for jump-starting recovery? How about a good three months? Three months of several  daily hours of qigong to attempt to re-wire … Read More »

Fakir, Faker, Fraud, or Simply Bianca?

Posted on March 8th, by Bianca in Uncategorized. 11 comments

Shortly after I published my website for coaching, a supporter overseas shared the link in an online neurology publication. A number of people responded negatively, implying that I both faked the symptoms of Parkinson’s Disease and then faked the recovery. Some questioned the honesty behind my claim to be free of Sinemet and Requip for well over two years. They seemed to want proof that I am not secretly popping pills. I suppose that only someone who’s had the condition and then reversed it would be able to know the difference between being well and having chemicals provide a temporary appearance and sense of wellness, but the difference is a huge one.

The first sign to me of how extensive this recovery has become is that I wasn’t upset, didn’t feel the need to immediately retaliate or defend when my authenticity was challenged. I stand on firm ground and have nothing to prove. However, I do love both a good argument and analysis, so bear with me, if you will, as I explore the situation.

Among my Parkinson’s symptoms were tremor, stiffness, slowed movement, constipation, cramped penmanship, locked shoulders, occasional foot drag, dry eye, an occasional bit of drool, difficulty with balance … Read More »

And the Winning Number is…540 !!!

Posted on September 20th, by Bianca in Uncategorized. No Comments

Anyone who has sat in one of my writing classes knows that I have always emphasized audience awareness. Many papers were returned with comments like “tone too informal for your audience” or “need to develop awareness of who will read this before you write.” Yet, here I sit, not really knowing my audience demographic. That was a concern because I wanted to please you with what I offered. Then came the conundrum: I believe you want the truth of my experience, and what if you don’t like that? I know that the truth of my experience, as I perceive it, must be why you are currently on this page. Many of you may be diagnosed with Parkinson’s Disease or some other condition that finds little solace in the resources of Western medicine. You’ve decided to explore alternative methods. That’s where I found myself after over a year on two different Parkinson’s meds, and a condition that was worsening. I didn’t want to increase the medications and was looking for another way to find relief from the pain, stiffness, fatigue, shaking, lack of balance, swallowing issues…the list goes on.

I began practicing Zhineng Qigong and immediately gained some relief, which grew incrementally, … Read More »